You know what i hate sometimes?

Feelings.

I mean, sometimes they just get in the way of life.

There are just some feelings i wish i didn't have. Like the ones i'm not able to control.

Lust is ok sometimes. I can deal with lust. It doesn't get in my way. Actually, its what makes me, me sometimes.

Its that other one that i can't stand. Lust involves actions and reactions. the other doesn't. the other one is all about feelings.

love

I've never been in love. But, then again, i'm only 18.

sometimes i think that i'm not able to love.

sometimes that's a good thing. sometimes its not.

I'm a hopeless romantic, ok? I'm looking for that perfect somebody who can sweep me off my feet and make me want to love.

isn't that sad?

I mean, come on... that's just so pathetic. I mean, yah, everyone wants that, but I'm waiting for it.

I don't want feelings. i don't like them. they make me feel, and sometimes i don't want to feel...

i'm drowning in a pool of hopeless dreams, and there is no one to save me...